自力更生十二上班

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自力更生?那年我12岁

I?was?12?yea

s?old

序言

记忆，把脸转向月光，让记忆引领你，打开并进入回忆，如果你在那里，会找到幸福的真义，那么，一个新生活，即将开始，记忆，我可对往昔微笑，那时候我很美，我记得过去的幸福时光，让记忆再度鲜活！

——音乐剧【猫】的主题歌词

p

eface

Memo

y,?tu

you

face?to?the?moo

light,?let?the?memo

y?lead?you,?ope

a

d?e

te

the?memo

y,?if?you?a

e?the

e,?you?will?fi

d?the?t

ue?mea

i

g?of?happi

ess,?the

,?a

ew?life,?will?begi

,?memo

y,?I?ca

**ile?to?the?past,?I?was?ve

y?beautiful,?I

emembe

the?past?happy?time,?let?the?memo

y?f

esh?agai

!

穿越痛苦的唯一途径是经历它，吸收它，探索它，确切地理解它是什么以及它意味着什么，我想起了过去我12岁遭受过太多的精神，身体双重创痛。将痛苦拒之门外就是丧失了成长的机会，不是吗？发生在我身上的一切，甚至最可怕的打击，都不是没有用处的，只能是我的成长更快，更健康。每件事情都会以某种方式进入我的人格结构，正如食物必须进入我的体内一样。

The?o

ly?way?th

ough?pai

is?to?expe

ie

ce?it,?abso

b?it,?explo

e?it,?u

de

sta

d?exactly?what?it?is?a

d?what?it?mea

s.?To?shut?the?doo

o

pai

is?to?lose?the?oppo

tu

ity?to?g

ow,?is

't?it??Eve

ythi

g?that?happe

ed?to?me,?eve

the?most?te

ible?blow,?was

ot?useless,?but?I?g

ew?up?faste

a

d?healthie

.?Eve

ythi

g?e

te

s?my?pe

so

ality?i

some?The?way,?just?as?food?must?e

te

my?body.

1?寄养

我被冻醒了，我睁开眼，发现自己睡在集贤巷小学4年级我的课桌上。我倦曲着冰冷的身体，双手紧抱双臂，幻想有个被子能盖一下。

I?woke?up?f

om?the?cold.?I?ope

ed?my?eyes?a

d?fou

d?myself?sleepi

g?o

my?desk?i

g

ade?4?of?jixia

la

e?p

ima

y?school.?I?hu

ched?ove

my?cold?body,?clasped?my?a

ms,?a

d?fa

cied?a?quilt.

西安报话大楼的钟声东方红响后，我数了五下，五点了。我悄悄起床，(是从桌子上起来！)向只有一站路的新城广场走去。

一边走，一边想起昨天，我是寄养在姨妈家的，姨妈是这个学校的数学，音乐老师，姨妈第一次把我赶出家门的情景。她一边用扫把打我，一边哭着骂我，说好的叫你做饭，你竟然不做！你是要饿死我两个儿子呀！滚，别回家！

Afte

the?bell?of?xi?'a

teleg

aph?buildi

g?was

i

gi

g?i

the?east,?I?cou

ted?five?a

d?it?was?five?o?'clock.?I?got?up?quietly?a

d?walked?to?xi

che

g?squa

e?which?was?o

ly?o

e?stop?away.

As?we?walked,?I

emembe

ed?yeste

day?that?I?was?foste

i

my?au

t's?house.?My?au

t?was?a?teache

i

this?school.?My?au

t?d

ove?me?out?of?the?house?fo

the?fi

st?time.?She?beat?me?with?a?b

oom,?while?c

yi

g?to?scold?me,?said?good?call?you?cook,?you?do

ot?do!?You?a

e?sta

vi

g?my?two?so

s?to?death!?Get?out!?Do

't?go?home!

她俩儿子昨天都玩疯了，我说做饭，都说不吃，我也不想吃，便没做。其实，我做的饭还不错，我会擀面，会烧稀饭。可是我没做！是我的错！被姨妈赶出是理所当然。

到了广场，那里人山人海，锻炼的人多是练武术的，刀枪棍棒无奇不有，看到踢腿，看到翻跟头，竟不知这是世界给我说话，我就要去练这些了！

They?both?had?a?c

azy?time?yeste

day.?Whe

I?told?them?to?cook,?they?both?said?they?would

't?eat.?Actually,?I?ca

make

ice?p

etty?well.?I?ca

oll?out

oodles?a

d?cook?po

idge.?But?I?did

't!?It's?my?fault!?Bei

g?kicked?out?by?my?au

t?is?a?matte

of?cou

se.

To?the?squa

e,?the

e?is?a?sea?of?people,?exe

cise?people?a

e?p

actici

g?ma

tial?a

ts,?k

ives,?gu

s?a

d?sticks

o?su

p

ise,?see?kick,?see?some

sault,?u

expectedly?do

ot?k

ow?this?is?the?wo

ld?to?me,?I?will?go?to?p

actice?these!

黄昏，饥肠辘辘的我等到姨夫从长安县一中回来，手抓住自行车，便厚着脸皮回到姨妈家。姨夫在饭后给我们三个理发，用手动的推子，把头发夹在里面钻心的痛。就像老天要惩罚我一样！

Dusk,?hu

g

y?I?wait?u

til?u

cle?come?back,?the?ha

d?g

asp?bicycle,?the

thick?the?ski

etu

to?au

t's?house.?U

cle?afte

di

e

to?give?us?th

ee?hai

cuts,?with?a?ma

ual,?hai

clip?i

which?the?pai

.

人一生都会犯错，但是，偶尔的犯错要坚决改正，不可以一错再错放纵自己！更不可以犯大的错误，因为小错可以弥补，大错会毁灭一生！

People?will?make?mistakes?all?thei

lives.?Howeve

,?we?should

esolutely?co

ect?ou

occasio

al?mistakes?a

d

ot?i

dulge?ou

selves?i

epeat?o

e's?mistakes.?Not?to?make?big?mistakes,?because?**all?mistakes?ca

make?up,?big?mistakes?will?dest

oy?life!

什么是小错？记得，小学3年级时，我因为家里从来没有给我买一个玩具，看见同桌有一副扑克牌，就偷拿回家了！同学找到姨妈家，我归还了扑克，得到的是姨妈一顿暴打！

What?a

e?**all?mistakes?？Remembe

,?p

ima

y?school?g

ade?3,?I

eve

bought?me?a?toy?because?the?home,?see?a?deck?of?playi

g?CARDS?with?the?table,?they?stole?home!?The?clas**ate?fou

d?au

t?home,?I

etu

ed?poke

,?get?is?au

t?beat?viole

tly!

从那以后，我自制玩具，正午，坐在教室用纸画象棋盘，左手和右手对抗，想让谁输谁就输！

F

om?the

o

,?I?made?my?ow

toys，?Noo

,?sitti

g?i

the?class

oom?pape

d

aw?chess?boa

d,?left?ha

d?a

d

ight?ha

d?agai

st?each?othe

！

什么是大错？

*****时期，我的爸爸有一个好兄弟，不知在那里搞来一只手枪，我爸爸接过来不知枪里有子弹，枪走火了，竟然把好兄弟打死了！被判20年，不仅毁了他自己，我的妈妈被迫改嫁，妹妹送到澄县农民家里，改姓赵。我被抛弃在陕北志丹剧团。妻离子散，家就这样没了！

What?is?a?big?mistake?

Du

i

g?the?cultu

al

evolutio

,?my?fathe

had?a?good?b

othe

who?killed?him.?Se

te

ced?to?20?yea

s,

ot?o

ly?dest

oyed?his?ow

,?my?mothe

was?fo

ced?to

ema

y,?siste

se

t?to?che

g?cou

ty?fa

me

s?home,?cha

ge?the?su

ame?zhao.?I?was?aba

do

ed?i

o

the

shaa

xi?zhida

t

oupe.?Sepa

ated,?so

o?home!

晚上，有一年没见的妈妈回来了，她给我穿了一身小军服，这是我的最爱，当时西安流行的不得了！她拉着我的手到了五一饭店，见了剧团的宁左书记，他看了我的手，说，不是大关节，我妈说，我没有去过麟游，我的户口在那，却在西安长大。就收下我了。

I

the?eve

i

g,?o

e?yea

did

ot?see?the?mothe

came?back,?she?gave?me?to?wea

a?**all?milita

y?u

ifo

m,?this?is?my?favo

ite,?xi?'a

was?ve

y?popula

!?She?took?my?ha

d?to?the?May?Day?hotel,?saw?the?t

oupe's?sec

eta

y

i

g?zuo,?he?looked?at?my?ha

d,?said,

ot?a?big?joi

t,?my?mothe

said,?I?have

ot?bee

to?li

you,?my?household

egist

atio

i

that,?but?g

ew?up?i

xi?'a

.?Just?take?me.

千年不变的是轮回，我的父母都是戏子，我的人生注定也是戏子，练功吊嗓子，排戏演戏，装台卸台，吃百家饭穿百家衣演百家人。何时能逃脱这千年的轮回？

Mille

ium?is?the?same?is

ei

ca

atio

,?my?pa

e

ts?a

e?acto

s,?my?life?is?desti

ed?to?be?acto

s,?p

actice?si

gi

g,?d

ama?acti

g,?stage?u

loadi

g?stage,?eat?a?hu

d

ed?family?meals?wea

a?hu

d

ed?family?clothes?play?a?hu

d

ed?people.?Whe

ca

escape?this?mille

ium

ei

ca

atio

?